Stuck

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A Cancer Patient

Donna

Donna A Cancer Patient

This past week after my hospitalization has found me stuck.  Can you really be hit again and again with the reality of your situation and not finally just accept it?

Every time I have one of these setbacks the heaviness of it all weighs me down and everything I know to be true, that my whole life has lead me here to use the talents I have to inspire others, I decide I just want to be Donna again.

Three years mentoring, The Cancer Fashionista, media, weekly visits to City Of Hope and somewhere along the way strutting my fashionista self, I forget that I am an actual cancer patient.  The armor of getting dressed and helping others, shields the reality of it for me and then a wake up call.

I know I am no different than anyone else out there suffering, it’s not the why me I question, but can I see the list and make my own decision, because this one just seems a little too much right now.

So I did what is so very important to do on this road, I met with my fellow Multiple Myeloma Warrior and I talked and talked and talked.  We end everyone of these times together acknowledging how much cancer sucks, but boy is our friendship such a blessing, one that would not of occurred without being on the same path.

And I decided it was way overdue to be what I should be…

Me.

I am mom, friend, sister, daughter, wife and many things in between.

My name is Donna and I am a cancer patient.

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